Well, it should.
It's really strange. I know better than most what it feels like to think that you're the best, that advice isn't necessary, because you're never wrong, because you were the biggest fish in the littlest pond, and you milked that for all it was worth. And even worse, you held on to that belief even when the pond water found its way into a river, which slowly but surely dumped you into the wide blue unknown that is the ocean. I know what it was like to have the magic bubble of relativity popped rather suddenly. And having to deal with the realisation that maybe you aren't all much to shout about after all.
It sucks. And I've needed multiple pep-talks to deal with the
But I think it's easier to be a little fish in a little pond (well, a medium fish. He wouldn't like being called little.) and then to go into the ocean and realise you maybe aren't so little any more. And it's so easy to get caught up in that, and to lord that over all us shrinking anchovies.
The fish analogy is getting out of hand. But when don't my analogies?
Anyway. Said current big fish still asks for my opinion. Still (hopefully) values my feedback. And its in those moments that I completely lose the urge to strangle him for living my dream, and remember that he's probably worked harder than I ever did, and is probably more cut out for that high-flying stuff anyway. I remember that he's still him, albeit with a fancy university to slip in to introductions. And I remember that had our positions been reversed, no one would have heard the end of the fact that I was in a fancy university.
It's the little things that make you appreciate people, and sometimes maybe admit that the universe might actually know what its doing.
nk
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